Loose Grip

Remember when we last talked how I wanted to get back to you?

Remember when you said that you don't know if you still can?

Remember when I said that I'll try my best?

Remember when you said that you're still not ready?

Remember when I said that I am prepared for that?

Remember when you last left me a text of a pseudo-kiss and imaginary hug?

Remember when I wanted to do just the same but in a more personal way?

Remember when you got sick and stayed at home all day watching The Avatar?

Remember when I surprised you and bought you oranges to make you feel better?

Remember when you reacted to that because you hate, hate, hate surprises but still I pursued?

Remember when I wanted so badly to meet you up at a mall?

Remember when you reciprocated when I handed you three Krispy Kreme Donuts?

Remember when I was so pissed off because of that?

Remember when you wanted to make up for it?

Remember when I truly appreciated that so much?

Remember when you got so sickly and wanted to have someone accompany you?

Remember when I felt dread that time?

Remember when you were to schedule your check-up but was afraid?

Remember when I said that I'm going to be there for you? 

Remember when you were scared on the outcome?

Remember when I told you that I'll stick with you?

Remember when you kept postponing and postponing?

Remember when I got so worried thinking?

Remember when you got hospitalized?

Remember when I had no idea because my phone got lost that night?  

Remember when you got so sarcastic about that moment?

Remember when I apologized, I could have done better?

Remember when you just miffed at my explanation?

Remember when I got hurt because of that?

Remember when you were already decreasing your texts to me everyday?

Remember when I always ask how you are?

Remember when you would always, always say: I'm OK?

Remember when I wanted to hold your hand again just like before?

Remember when you wanted to avoid holding my hand just like now?

Remember when I watch the days go by with you in my mind?

Remember when you flooded yourself with work just to get by each day?

Remember when I asked if you had a date last Valentine's Day?

Remember when you told me you had no time for such nonsense ideas?

Remember when I was waiting for even a simple Hello from you?

Remember when you don't do that to me anymore?

Remember when I held your hand so tight I wished it wouldn't cease?

Remember when you held my hand so tight you wished it wouldn't cease?

Remember when I felt that this ain't going forward anymore?

Remember when you would slightly lose your grip?

Remember when I would slightly lose my grip?

Remember when you suddenly released your grasp? 

Remember all those?

I hope you did.