Prone to be Alone?

I think we're special, I know we're special, I feel we're special. We have special needs and wants that a heterosexual doesn't. We have a culture of our own regardless if you're effeminate, straight-acting, in the closet, and any other descriptions listed under the word Homosexuality.

One thing bothers me, are we more susceptible on living the life as an individual? I know, I know, here I am again with my queries on being gay but one can't help but think. This is me, I think a lot, I rant a lot and I analyze a lot, that's why a lot of people find me queer in its simplest sense and I respect them for that.

Whoever said that no man is an island mustn't had any sexual encounter with the same sex. The dynamics between a heterosexual couple and a homosexual couple aren't really twilights apart but it is quite different. Most of the heterosexual courtships are done in public, you know what I mean. But, as for us, courtships or at least the initiation of it is done in private, so private that the bed is an integral part of it.

This is common to us. I admit it, when I was still starting out, I didn't even think that sex would even be involved but as time, person and experiences go on, I noticed that this is becoming a trend and no, I didn't ask my lesbian sister if this is the case with them. :)

I didn't mean to be so upfront with this question. It's just I'm a person afraid of what the future holds to someone like me, a man who falls so hard in love then WHAM! falls out of love faster than the fastest bullet train in Japan. And don't even get me started on temptations...

So yeah, the life of a gay guy in the modern society is tough, complicated and complex and even though a lot of my gay friends tell me it's just a state of mind, I wouldn't completely agree with them.