Club JO

Admittedly, I am in a relationship right now. WHOA?! Really? Yes Ma'am/Sir. I am in a relationship. Just changed my status in Facebook. Who would have thought, right? Little, old blogger boy is actually with someone. We made it official last 19th of June.


I can even describe it as heavenly. Cheesy! But yes, when I'm in love I go way cheesy, even some people won't believe it. I can't even believe it sometimes...


Then I went to his dorm to have a date and spend the night with him. Just us two. No one but us. Suffice to say it was that particular moment that the hours seemed to be longer and more appreciated.


I went home feeling ambivalent and having that sense of half-baked emotion. Not that spending the night with him isn't great but, you know us guys, we change guys like we change wardrobe regularly...


Alighting from the train in Baclaran, I let out a heavy and deep sigh. Not only am I walking in a dark, murky and smelly path but I was having the same thought in my mind about this relationship of ours. Yes, call me a pessimist and paranoid.


I looked at my phone, no text from him. Maybe he's studying for his next class. I slipped it back into my pocket and tuned in to my Ipod to let my mind wander for the time being.


This love thing is really a double-edge sword ready to slice you off or protect you from harm. There I was falling into a deep coma-like love for this guy and yet, I can't seem to put my finger in it again. Speculations are hard not to dismiss especially when you have trust issues that are still unresolved although at this point in time, rhetorical questions play a major role in how I view life. Should I let it be or find a solution? Should the punctuation mark be a question mark or a period? Should it be a hindrance or a boon?


Oh geez is all I can say for now.


To be continued...