Taking Promises

A Promise.


How far would you go in keeping one?


Making one?


Letting it happen?


A Promise.


It can create things so powerful even one might get overwhelmed.


It can conjure a lot of things we had in our minds.


It can form mounds and mounds of what-may-be's.


A Promise.


When was the last time you had one for yourself?


For your significant other?


For the ones you love?


A Promise.


It can be the simplest.


It can be superficial.


It can be worth it.


It can be a waste, a complete and utter waste.


A Promise.


It is powerful.


Because when we say it, we mean it and we do it...

This Boy, This Little Boy Part 1

I figured I need a breather from my usual posts so I'm posting something totally egocentric and self-centered er, or some facts about me or people I have met.


1. I love reading books. My favorite author is Carlos Ruiz Zafon and my favorite book is The Angel's Game but I was initially interested in Alexandre Dumas' The Count of Monte Cristo but I have read books by Jules Verne, Oscar Wilde, John Steinbeck, Arlene Chai, Bob Ong, Neil Gaiman, Dan Brown, Mitch Aibom, and Alex Sanchez. I still have a lot of catching up to do.


2. I play fighting games a looot. My favorite character is Morrigan Aensland.


3. I am a frugal freak. Since time immemorial I think I have been this way. Even in College I'd bring a packed lunch each and every time ranging from Kamameshi rice to oatmeal. 


4. I have this little habit of being very particular from books to read, to fabrics of clothes and the way I dress for work. It can take me a couple of hours just for me to buy that perfect book or even more in buying the perfect shirt.


5. I always, always wipe the toilet bowl before taking the dump.


6. I stopped counting after boyfriend #7 and I even forgot who boyfriend #7 was!


7. I need to have at least six hours of continuous, uninterrupted and well-rested sleep. Less than that would be disastrous.


8. You NEVER, EVER, EVER wake me up without me telling you beforehand to wake me up. My sleep is more important than your life. Yes.


9. I go to the gym twice a week and cardio once a week.


10. Favorite jogging song - Teenage Dream by Katy Perry.


11. I don't normally ask for someone's mobile number. Only in two instances. A blogger Kane and Mu[g]en know (which will never get out of your mouths I presume) and someone I was not initially smitten to but got me smitten the second time but I think he is either taken or dating exclusively with this guy I kissed before.


12. Yes, I delete Facebook friends. I don't mind, really.


13. I have numerous acquaintances both personal and casual but I only have a handful of persons I can truly call friends.


14. MGG was the first blogger I met and talked with then I came to interact with his other friends and then the circle widened.


15. I actually met Kane about a month or two before I started blogging. During MGG's birthday party.


16. I also met Nimmy's officemate a year before I encountered and read Nimmy and his blog. I didn't even know they were officemates.


17. I have met Engel once. I will not tell you where. But it was very brief. ;)


18. I first met Mu[g]en dancing in BED. That was Mcvie's birthday celebration where I also met Carrie and Tristan Tan. London Boy you know I have met you many times. Hehe.


19. Second time I met Mu[g]en was in Kane's birthday party and I can still remember how I asked for his number through K just so I could thank him for putting up with me despite my drunken state.


20. I also met Yas Jayson there.  The second time I met Yas was at Shangri-la. He was with Victor that time.


21. North Park is what I consider an epitome of fine dining.


22. Aside from reading books I love reading blogs too. I was even caught once in our office reading blogs. Sorry, couldn't resist.


23. I have also met Daredevilry at a party. He was with Jerron too and... ;)


24. Me and Anteros have also met several times when he was having a little conflict. He's a good guy.


25. Someone once asked me if I'm a good su**er and told me he'd pay me. I told him I'd su** him and pay me if he thinks I'm good and if I'm not, well then, it's in the house.


26. I think I keep holding on too much from memories.


27. I have three beanies. I love wearing 'em.


28. I once gave head in an exit in Greenbelt 5. Twice in a Bonifacio High Street comfort room.


29. One of my biggest frustrations in life is to have a six-pack abs. Grrr...


30. I bought a pair of rollerblades back in 2007 and have only used them thrice. Man, I thought it was easy to learn!


31. When I was a child I thought unicorns were true but have never believed in the existence of Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny.


32. I have never been religious nor spiritual that's why I want to learn how to be.


33. I'm still wondering why I get irritated if someone I barely know calls me gay. Hmmm...issue.


34. I pooped in my pants in elementary twice. That was disgusting. Hahahaha!


35. I have a lot of pet peeves from people peeing publicly, people spitting anywhere they want to, people who don't like to hand your fare to the jeepney driver and people who bump you and don't even apologize or excuse themselves.


36. I don't have s** unless both of us takes a bath. Most of the time.


37. I abhor sports. Am I that type of boy?! Okay some occasional swimming might be possible but basketball or other contact sports? Naaaaah...


38. I know I'm selfish.


39. The farthest I have gone to is in Cebu.


40. Two words: Four Some.


Nyahahahahahahaha!

The Intensity of Loving

"Why did you still accept him after all that he has done. Isn't it enough for you to realize that what he did was wrong and worse, he might do it again." I asked my friend one day over the phone.


We were talking about his ex, the ex who made his heart bleed and cry. His ex who he knew had a very active alternative lifestyle. He was devastated, utterly devastated. 


But he stayed.


"Because G, I love him." He replied with much sincerity and honesty.


I kept silent for nearly a minute.


I fathomed what he said.


I reasoned out with myself.


But still I could not understand at that time.


He cheated. Made a fool out of my friend. Slept with other guys. And my friend accepted him back.


Sometimes we find ourselves into predicaments we never would want to experience but when we do it's a life changing experience. It may not be the best that we had hoped for nor is it the most pleasurable we had to undertake but it did happen. That's all there is.


But love really is a wondrous albeit complicated feeling. No matter what the person did, no matter what his past holds of him, no matter what he went through. There will always be part of you that will be saying...


"Go on, it will be worth a try, again."


And now I finally understood why.

Of Permanence and Pertinence

Everything is temporary...


A friend told me this when we had a serious talk about loving, being loved, being unloved and everything else amongst the three.


And I sighed.


I would not argue. I refuse to.


But you see I grew up with books and movies about eternity and forever. I know it may not be much but I treasure the fact that I did think that forevers are true. They could be for all I know.


Then somehow it changed.


I changed.


Past lovers of mine had changed.


People around me changed.


When viewpoints and perspectives brought about by experiences happened, suddenly everything went blur from there.


At the back of my mind I was thinking if permanence is untrue then what are people looking for?


Long-lasting love? 


But long-lasting is subjective.


And people, well people actually want to hear the words "I will love you forever" than "I will love you long".


And if everything is temporary, why bother pursuing?

Does that mean ever afters are non-existent?

Does that mean that when you finally find someone that you were searching for for years, he could still go away, or you could still go away?

Then that is heart-wrenching.

As for me, do I still believe in ever afters?

Well, I have to find Prince Charming first don't I?

That Question Of The Day

"How's your day?"

I still long for the day to come when someone would ask me that.

After a long day at work either good or bad.

It wouldn't matter.

But for now, I still hope.

And that will do.

Public Indecency

It was a long Saturday. And by that I meant I had work.

But I encountered something I would have never expected.

As I steadily grabbed a handrail inside the MRT, my mind drifted towards the metropolitan view. I was looking, staring outside the train's window. The cityscape still makes me awe at the wonders of men and their engineering prowess.


And then he came inside the coach where I was while the train was waiting for passengers going south bound.


I was still looking outside, still awed by the beauty that of the lights, the buildings, the view, the works while he, on the other hand, was looking at me across the glass.

Obviously he was near me, inches away, his scent I even recognized. Manly. Greedy. Hungry.



I went on with my life nonchalantly. He was still looking across the window, he looked across as if he just saw me, his arch-nemesis. Fury. Angry. Enraged.

And then when most people alighted off the train he did one thing that surprised me.


He pressed his crotch against my pants. Throbbing. Pulsating. Wanting.

I still acted the same, like nothing happened. But that wouldn't be fun.


And so I pressed myself closer to him.



His fury was replaced by a satisfying smile. And he got off at Shaw Blvd.

Malate 103

Trilogies are for movies and books but this is the last part.

Have you tried the first ones?

Hahahahahahaha!

1. Fashionably early?  Baby, you're not going to work.

2. Early booking is never advisable.  Fresher meats come in by 2 or 3 am.

3. So you got booked. Now what? You tell your friends who came with you. Proper sex manners please.

4. Having someone tell you you're cute doesn't mean he wants ot get it on with you. Stop being delusional.

5. Learn how to ignore. Persistence is a b****, yes?

6. You're not the only pretty boy in the club.

7. Dance with care.  Big boys especially.

8. Wearing shorts? It's a club not a sports gym.

9. With great crowds come great responsibilities. Stick to the right ones.


10. When a guy tells you he's single, you don't doubt. Everyone's single for the night. 

11. Never turn your back on the guy you like. You might never know who wants him badly too.


12. Give. Give your number. There's a 50-50 chance he may or may not contact you at all.


13. And finally, once a Malate Boy, always a Malate Boy.

Let's dance, shall we?

:)