(Ma/Pa/Ka)Hirap

As a kwarentahin...

Anrami ko na palang mga naranasan.

Happiness, sadness, failures, rejections, heartbreaks, successes, bewilderment, excitement, melancholy, depression, and euphoria among others. 

I am honestly still grasping turning this old.

And I want to quote Camille Prats`interview: "At this age, we are more dying than living. So make everything count."

Kaya almost everything that you do should have a purpose, but never force it.

For if it is meant for you, it will be for you.

There will be external and internal factors that may affect the process, but in the end, para sa iyo lang talaga iyan.

That is the premise of life, living and death.

Andito nga pala ako ulit sa Pinas. Pangalawang linggo ko na dito.

Masaya naman siya. 

More, more pahinga.

Pero nakaka-bore rin pala.

And that is where you have to see your silver lining.

Meditating.

Stretching.

Going to the gym.

Meeting relatives.

Going to the beach.

Meeting friends.

Flirting.

Journaling.

Taking care of documents.

Conversing with family.

Praying.

There are tons of things to do rin pala kahit pakiramdam mong bored ka.

And it really changes the pace of your life, your mind, your perspectives.

And just to add, inaayos ko na yung lupang binili ko. But I figured I will let my ate do it for me kasi nga naman ang hirap pag asa abroad ako and they need something from me ASAP.

So I asked my mom to assist me with obtaining a Special Power of Attorney.

Ayun, dali-dali kaming nagpunta sa isang opisina malapit sa munisipyo.

The lawyer was sitting near the entrance.

Punong-puno yung maliit na opisina niya.

They had like 4 computers, all occupied by his staff.

So ganoon pala, pupunta ka sa kanya, magsasabi ka kung anong kailangan mo and then he will need some information from you and designates a staff to type the needed legal document.

This is the second time I have done this, aside from having notarized some documents before.

The lawyer looked so stressed-out and easily agitated that he was speaking so fast, I could barely understand him.

Mainit ang ulo, kumbaga.

I was also miffed and irritated by the way he treats his customers.

Naiintindihan kong may kailangan kami sa kanya kaya siya andiyan, but at the same time we are paying customers.

In the end, I lacked some documents and would need to come back at a later date.

I figured I will have more luck with a different law office.

Pero ang intense ng pakiramdam ko kanina.

Akala ko talaga magsusungit ako sa kanya kasi pumapatol talaga ako.

Maldito ako in real life.

But luckily, my presence of mind worked.

I understood what is happening in his life at that particular moment.

And what I can only do is change my mindset of how he was treating me.

And that`s what I did.

Kaya nga ito ang laging tatandaan natin:

These same circumstances that we are dealing with, it is showing us that, unless we have learned from our mistakes, we will still continue to experience them every now and then.

And that is your Samsara, in Buddhist terms.

We pass through life in order to learn from what we have done.

Mabuhay ang mga kwarentahin.

Punyeta. 

Part 8