Of Endless Strive

"How was gym?" I asked Kane over the phone.

"Good. Happy." He was still quite a bit short of breath.

"Did you just get out of the gym?" I asked.

"Yeah. Walking home now."

"You seem to be very tired from your workout or..." He paused.

"Or...I'm just getting older."

My eyes widened. "NO! Don't you ever, EVER, ever say that word again! That word does not exist in our vocabulary!"

We suddenly laughed hysterically.

After maintaining our composure, I asked him what exercises he does in the gym.

"You see G it's this new workout I have been doing recently. Very tiring." Still snickering.

"What do you do there?"

"Sets of exercises with minimal rest. But the good thing about this is that it saves me time." Explaining while still breathing heavily.  "First set then proceed to the next and then to the next."

"Ah, circuit training, that's what I do too. I do that too because it saves me time and the push it gives me."

"But I feel very pressured G."

"How come?"

"I wasn't like this before. You get me?"

"What do you mean" I asked.

"I didn't want to have bigger biceps or bigger chest before."

"If I may say..." I butted. "You were skinnier when we were at the party in Linden Suites. The first time I met you."

"Yes I was thinner then but I had no definitions then."

"Now I get what you mean."

"So how about you G? When will this take you?"

"Until I have that 6-pack. And right now I think I am still far from that body type." I confessed.

"I know it sounds superficial but sometimes we need to be superficial. I think I told you before how fat I used to be. I was in high school and I was 185 pounds! Imagine it Kane, me, a little boy like me weighing that much...but you know what?"

"What?"

"I was perfectly happy. I didn't care what others think"

"But my mom somehow got to me. She told me that it's unappealing to be fat. She pushed me hard and she succeeded. Of course I couldn't blame her if I have weight issues now but you know, somehow, I think she played a part of it, but of course she is my mom."

"And the funny thing is she wants me to get fat now. She says I'm too thin, which of course I don't think that's actually true."

"We see those guys in clubs, ripping with muscles, we look at ourselves in the mirror and tell ourselves 'it's not yet enough.' More. More. More."

"You see what I mean G? So what if you got that 6-pack? What's next for you? Larger biceps? More protruding chest? Broader shoulders?"

"Hayyy, Kane! You're making me worry more!"

We both laughed.

"So when will we stop this G?"

"I don't think we ever will Kane...I don't think we can. This madness, I mean."

And said my goodbye to him over the phone as I enjoyed the rest of the night.

Connections

We cut ties in order to build different ones.

Grindr 101

1.  Read the profile before asking. God gave you eyes. Use them.

2.  Never start the conversation asking for his goddamn Facebook account.

3.  Have multiple pictures ready. I mean it.

4.  The more metropolitan, the more choosy (Makati and QC tops the list).

5.  No face pic, no chat.

6.  Thank him if you're not interested in him. Remember breeding?

7.  The existence of posers is omnipresent.

8.  Face pics.  Check. Topless pics.  Check. Dick pics. Only if warranted.

9.  Never flatter too much.

10.  Not an avenue for commitments.